Prior
to Erin's death, I did not have an occupation outside of the
home. Being a homemaker was a totally fulfilling career for me,
but since her transition I have had the feeling of a hand in
my back pushing me to write and share the experiences I have
had. It is very important that I be able to turn the terrible
negative of Erin's death into something positive, to put it into
balance.
Making the decision to go public with the
after-death communication received from Erin was not an easy
choice. How would it be accepted by our friends and my husband's
business associates? This was of deep concern to me, but nothing
would have stopped me from going forward with this book. I firmly
believe we all need to be true to ourselves and have the courage
to stand up for our convictions. That is what I have done with
the writing and publishing of From Erin with Love. It
is my truth; it is my experience; it is my way of helping others
attain a broader understanding of life.
It is obvious what I have lost, and it is
a loss of overwhelming proportion, but I would like to talk about
what I have also gained. I have gained a knowledge of whom I
am and what I am capable of accomplishing. I have discovered
that it is not only possible to survive the most unthinkable
tragedy imaginable but to grow stronger as a result of it. How
could I ever be frightened of anything again? - I have faced
the monster in the closet, I have conquered him, I have survived.
Going through such excruciating pain and suffering
can change a person forever but not necessarily in a negative
manner. After experiencing any type of loss or trauma, and drawing
from my own experience, there comes a time when a decision has
to be made as to how you want to live the balance of your life.
After the loss of a child, it takes a very long time to arrive
at a point where you are out of the fog enough to make this decision,
but the time will come. Everyone has their own time frame in
traveling the long lonely road to recovery. As many of you are
aware, false expectations set by society can be very damaging
to those who are walking this road. Even the word "recovery"
is a misnomer; you do not recover from the loss of your child.
Instead, you learn to rebuild your life, despite the giant hole
in your heart. I have chosen, as I hope you will, to embrace
life, pitfalls and all.
Formerly, a very shy, quiet woman, I have
made more than fifty personal appearances in five states promoting
From Erin with Love. I have appeared in most of the major
bookstore chains, as well as in many independent bookstores.
I have also spoken at the Unity Church in several different states,
as well as other speaking engagements with various groups. I
receive a great deal of fulfillment from interacting with those
whom I meet at these appearances. I feel that this is the contribution
I am here on Earth to make - to share my story and to open the
door so people will be comfortable in speaking of their own experiences
dealing with after-death communication. I intend to continue
with my speaking engagements and will start my second book in
the very near future.
