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Name: Linda Carey
Location: Salem OR
Email: lecarey@juno.com
May all who visit this site in search of relief from the pain of losing someone they loved find solace in knowing they are not alone in their quest for answers. Helen, as your sister, I have watched you survive the unimaginable, the death of our Erin. You had the choice to give in to your grief, to your sorrow, and no one would have found fault in your choosing that path. Instead, in the midst of your personal anguish, you chose to open your eyes and to listen to your heart. And once you heard the still, small voice inside of you, you chose to share your experience with the world. Within that sharings going through the same experience and perhaps going through the same experience and perhaps lessening their pain by reaching out with open arms to offer consolation through understanding. From that choice to share has come enlightenment, a sense of purpose and the ability to once again find the sheer joy in being alive. You are truly a special spirit and I love you.

Name: SusieD.
Location: Glenrock, Wyoming
Email: salad@coffey.com
Web Site: http://www.scsn.net/users/artlady/ar05044.htm
Wow Helen...beautiful website. Thanks for sharing Erin with all of us..and thanks for being the loving and thoughtful friend to all. You have made this journey through the dark and terrible a little less lonely. Thanks for sharing your heart and tears....

Name: Liliana Bad Dumitrescu
Location: France
Email: idumitrescu@nordnet.fr
Web Site: http://home.nordnet.fr/~idumitrescu
Hello, I am writing you from France and I have just found your Web Site on Internet. My name is Liliana Bad Dumitrescu. I am 46 and I have lost my husband on January 15, 1999. My husband was an eminent and internationally known scientific researcher, medical doctor and doctor in sciences. You can consult his personal Web Site at the following address: He died from a bad treated pneumonia which degenerated in severe respiratory and cardiac insuffisancy. He struggled against death for 3 months being all this time connected to a ventilatory device. It happens that during the year 1998 we had been at several times forestollen with messages and facts that a dramatically health problem could appear, but we were too cartezian in mind to interpret correctly these messages in good time. And the tragedy occured. I will tell you all about if you are interested. My husband having been a doctor, while in hospital, of course thought of the possibility that he might die. We talked often about death. I made him swear that if this occured, he should help me, guide me and be in contact with me. And this is what happens every day. I have full of events. He seems to be near me all the time. I shall give you just one example: I promised that if he dies I shall transport him in Romania where we were born to burry him near his parents, in a place we have in a monastery. I also promised that we will flight on the same plane. He died on January 15 and on January 22 I was at the Roissy Airport in Paris where I had to go on the plane Air France (flight number AF1888) from Paris-Bucharest with my daughter and the body of my husband. The plane was to take off at 9H50 in the morning. At 6 o'clock in the morning my daughter had phoned at the company to inquire if everything was OK. The answer was Yes. At 9h and 15 I aws the first person to penetrate the plane. The air hostess told me to go and find my place. On the moment when I wanted to direct myself towards my place, I heard a voice which textually told me : "Verify if I am with you". Hearing this, I stopped and returned to the air hostess and told her: Mrs, I am flying to Bucharest for dramatic reasons. Please be so kind and verify if the coffin of my husband has been embarked". She answered: "Mrs, please take your place and as soon as all passengers are on board, I promise, I will verify and come to you to confirm". At 9h45 she came and told me: "Mrs. Dumitrescu, I am sorry to inform you that the coffin of youhuhusband is not with us, it will come with the next flight". When I heard this, I jumped out of my place and I had to stop the plane telling them that if they don't bring immediately the coffin I will go in the airport and make a press conference. They brought him from a 5 kilometers hangar where he had been forgotten and the plane was blocked for 55 minutes. Well, I would very much to get in contact with you and have your opinion. Looking forward to hearing from you, Sincerely, Liliana Bad Dumitrescu

Name: Helen M. Fisher
My reply to Liliana My feeling is that you have positive proof of your husband's continuing existence since you were able to confirm what you were told by him when you were on the plane. This is wonderful. I will be e-mailing you. Thank you so much for sharing your story. --Helen

Name: ilex
Location: Fl. USA
Email: Ilex826@aol.com
just curious: how many parents have been told/heard that the child that they have lost now has a job working with small children. Is this common? Are each of us assigned a "job" once we cross over? ilex

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Hi Ilex, Several people have related to me that they have also been told that their young adult children are working with children, but I have never seen anything specific about numbers of persons who have experienced ADCs who have been given this type of information. My personal opinion is that there are specific jobs to do for specific persons, but only if the person chooses to do so. Working with children would be something that I feel Erin would definitely have agreed to do, if offered the opportunity. I have also been told that Erin has connected with the daughter of a new friend of mine. The two young women seemed to have had the same type of interests in their Earthly lives and the same type of vibrant personalities. This was confirmation of a feeling Ialready had about the two of them. I welcome any input anyone would care to share on this subject. Thanks, Ilex, for your questions. Peace and love, Helen

Name: marisa
Location: chicagoland
Email: marisa_foster@dl.com
Have you been in contact with George Anderson? Have you had a session with him? If so, what did you think? and How did you contact him? I am sorry for your loss! Thanks for sharing your life session. Any info is greatly appreciated! Marisa

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Marisa, I will e-mail you George's web site address. My husband and I met with him in May of 1991. The transcript of our read with him is included in its entirety in From Erin with Love. What did I think about our session with George? I felt as though my life had been handed back to me on a silver platter. The next day my husband said it was the first time he had seen me really smile in the past two years. The truth is, I simply couldn't stop smiling. I must point out that this wasn't the end of the pain that accompanied my every minute after Erin made her transition, it simply doesn't work that way, but it helped more than any therapy session ever could have done. Knowing of her continuing existence has made me very determined to live my life in a way that will make Erin proud of me. This decision was the turning point for me in starting to heal from this horrendous tragedy. How did I contact him? By phone. At that time that is how appointments were made--I'm not certain how it is done now as that has been many years ago. I had happened upon his first book, "We Don't Die" in the library. It practically jumped off the shelf at me. After our return from seeing George, a friend went to the same library to find this book. It was no longer there, either on the shelf or in the card catalogue. After she told me this, I went to the library to check. She was correct. We had experienced contact by Erin in various ways before we met with George. What we heard that evening was verification of what we already knew to be true. There was no doubt at all that Erin was in the room with us, coming in loud and clear. You will be hearing from me via e-mail in the next day or so.

Name: laura
Location: usa
Email: ilex826@aol.com
Helen, I just finished with your and Erin's book. It's the kind of validation that I constantly search for. Life is all about learning and from those lessons is to Love. laura (ilex)

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Life is indeed about learning, and, unfortunately, many of our lessons come the hard way. It is our choice in how we handle the cards that fate deals us in our journey from our Earth birth to our Earth death, and we learn much as a result of these choices. My own personal belief is that our time on this planet is Earth school, and our bodies are Earth suits, and the reason we are here is to learn how to give unconditional love. I don't mean that we have to like everyone, but we do need to learn to allow everyone to be who they are without being overly judgmental, and I am the first to admit this isn't an easy task. Even the hardened criminal has had events in life which have determined his/her behavior. I certainly do not believe this excuses anyone from having to take responsibility for their actions, as there are always consequences to every choice we humans make, cause and effect, but I believe we need to try to be more understanding of the unfortunate choices many humans make in their Earth life. Understanding "why" certainly isn't the same as condoning unacceptable behavior. I don't want anyone who reads this to misunderstand me on this point. :-) Thank you for your kind words about "From Erin with Love." They are very much appreciated. Peace and love, Helen

Name: Deborah
Location: Northern Kentucky
Email: RozeW@aol.com
Dear Helen, I tried in vain to attend the ADC chat last night, only to be kicked off repeatly by my server. I am sorry that I missed it. My 17 year old son, Dane, collasped and died of a cardiac arrythimia while attending a residential assistant training class at his university on October 6, 1996, he had been in college for just 6 weeks and died 3 weeks short of his 18th birthday. He was a remarkable young man,.brilliant,.... a national merit scholar, popular,.... president of his senior class, and an accomplished musician. So much in so little time. I have received no communication from Dane, none at least, that I am aware of. I have a strange sense of calm regarding his death. I don't know where this comes from...perhaps a knowledge that all is ok with him, that is what I prefer to think. My love for him is so strong, it is ever-present...I only wish that I could have the luxury of a dream to see his face once again. While I am so happy for any bereaved parent that has experienced a communication with their child, I have a sense of being cheated that I have not received the same from Dane. I know how important I was to him...we were so close...I wish it would happen for me.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Deborah, I'm sorry you weren't able to make it into the chat but I am happy that you have written your thoughts here. Please feel free to e-mail if you would like to talk further. I am so very sorry about the death of your son Dane. He sounds as if he was/is a very special young man. I add "is" because I have no doubt that he continues to be who he always was; he has changed form but his personality and memory remain, as does his love of his family. On the subject of dreams, try asking each night before you fall asleep that Dane come to you. This works for some people. Also pay very close attention to anything unusual that happens in the world of nature. Butterflies and birds often play a part in the communication. My daughter has said that those in her dimension can direct animals, etc., to do their bidding. She has made it quite plain that she is not a butterfly, but that she directs the butterfly to appear at appropiate times. Please read my "press" link for one of my most recent experiences connected with the Swallowtail Butterfly. Also pay close attention to your thoughts. Messages often come through in our own thought pattern. If you feel that Dane is nearby, talk to him as usual. It was quite a long time before I could ascertain Erin as I do now. Do you ever have the feeling of his presence near you? This often is felt in your back, at least it is with me. Several times I have also caught a glimpse of Erin out of my periphial vision. Just a sudden flash off to the side as if she is there for an instant and then gone. I remember a day several years ago in early spring day when I was thinking of my Mom who died in 1994, and I whirled around to tell her, "Look, Mom, the daffodils are starting to bloom." This was very strange because I had lived 600 miles away from her since 1971. I was not in the habit of standing in my kitchen and having a conversation with her, and she had never been in the house I lived in at that time. I am quite certain that Mom was there beside me that day. Sometimes people have blinking lights at opportune moments, or a song is played on the radio and it seems to be an answer to what you are thinking at the time. Or if you have asked Dane to send proof that he is there, you may soon hear one of his favorite songs, etc. These are called synchronicities--meaningful coincidence. You have sensed that he is okay where he is. That feeling has had to come from somewhere. Again, please don't hesitate to e-mail me if you have any questions or just wish to chat a little. Peace and love, Helen

Name: Marsha
Location: Metro New York
Email: Marsh143@aol.com
Web Site: http://members.aol.com/AnglsRUs/suzan.html
Dear Helen, After speaking with you the other day, I realized that our girls definitely brought us together at this time in our lives. (Me at 11 years since Suzy died and you approximately 10 years since Erin left our world.) I have been studying synchronicity and parapsychology for many years and have had MANY messages from Suzy; some spiritual, some playful, some sad, and some remarkably beautiful. I so much admire the sensitivity and compassion you readily give to all of us and, I too, have found that "helping is healing" in many ways. I applaud you and Erin and Suzy and all the children of Heaven for helping us bring their life to light.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Hi Marsha, Thank you so much for your kind words. It would not surprise me to discover that Erin and Suzy had something to do with our speaking on the phone. I always have the feeling that Erin is working in parallel with me, and that she connects with the loved ones of those I meet here in our dimension. There has been proof of this in several instances. I went to your web page and "met" Suzy. She is a very lovely young woman. I applaud you, also, Marsha, for helping so many other bereaved parents deal with their pain.

Name: Noreen s.
Location: Parma Ohio
Email: dolls-4-nor@webtv.net
Both of our children have passed.Our daughter at birth, our son at 36 years.Our son had a stroke from a blood clot. He lived for 3 yrs. unable to speak or move.He was aware of every thing. We know he has visited us in many ways. this is such a comfort.The pain a parent suffers is unbelieveable,but it helps so much to know we wll be together again.Thank you for letting me express our feelings and most of all for understanding.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Noreen, My heart goes out to you. Only another bereaved parent can possibly understand the pain involved after the loss of a child. In addtion to dealing with our grief, we have to learn to accept the "unacceptable" and to move on with our lives in spite of the giant hole in our being. Erin was in a coma state for a very short time following two strokes, and we have had proof that she was aware of all that transpired during that time. The fact that she kept a promise to come back and let us know if there was life after death has given me the impetus to reach out to others in need. I know how the doubt creeps in after having received some type of communication from beyond the veil and how important it is to know that others have had these same types of experiences. Thank you for writing.

Name: Linda
Location: New York, USA
Email: limaran@yahoo.com
Just wanted to thank you all for sharing - it is my first time to this site. My mom is in the hospital at 84 yrs. old and a mere 65 pounds with pneumonia. I know that she will be leaving the earth soon and am having a difficult time - am almost paniced at losing her. I am an only child so we were close and she always worried about this time when she would have to leave me. I am married and get lots of support from my hubby and friends but feel so scared for mom. Hearing that she will go to a new life - will continue on, brings me comfort. I guess I am one of those people who need to read "proofs" to be convinced during my low emotional times. Thanks again for all your wonderful stories and courage and belief.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Linda, Thank you for your message. I lost my mom several years ago. She also wasted away to almost nothing towards the end, and I know how difficult this is for you to see happening to your mother. I smiled when I read your comments about needing proof because even after all of my experiences it is still important to me to receive "proof" from time to time. Talk to your mother even if she is not aware of what you are saying and ask her to come to you with proof after she makes her transition. You could even do it silently because I think at her stage of life the part of her that will live on forever will hear you. Please feel free to e-mail me if I can help in any way. Peace and love, Helen

Name: Denise
Location: Ohio
Email: MyAngelJ@aol.com
Hello: It was just recently the 13th Of May, 1999 that it was the 1 yr. anniversary of my 14 yr/ old sons death. I have have immensely distraught and depressed over this year. I had the unnatural moment of experiencing and watching his death. I have been so very consumed. I am lost and tormented by the very loss of this angelic young man. My sister and I have built him a website. I guess in my heart it keeps him alive. He was beautiful, Thank U for Listeing Denise Johnny's MOM

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Denise, Of course you have been depressed and distraught, how could you not be under these most horrific of circumstances. Your emotions are exactly as most bereaved parents experience. I walked in a complete fog for the entire first year and much of the secondr. I functioned but totally on automatic pilot. It took all the energy I could muster to drag my feet over the side of the bed each morning and start the day. I can't promise the pain will ever completely go away, it won't, but it will not remain anything like the way it is now. It will become a liveable pain, a background pain that from time to time hits when least expected, but it will not resemble anything like what you are experiencing now. That I can promise. Hold on to that thought, allow yourself to acknowledge the deep hurt and pain that at this time you carry with you every moment of every waking hour. This is where you are right now, regardless of what people who have not experienced this particular tragedy may think. The public at large, including many therapists, have no idea what a bereaved parent has to endure. Do not feel guilty because of being on an emotional roller-coaster, how well I remember those days, it is normal. For me it helped to find other bereaved parents, such as those connected with the support group The Compassionate Friends. Only another Mom or Dad who has lost their child knows how it feels to have to face and deal with the "unthinkable." Bereaved parents are forced to learn to"accept what is the unacceptable," and that is not an easy feat. My feeling is that the entire first year a bereaved person is walking around in shock. I also lost a great deal of weight even though I made certain that I was eating even though I was not hungry. It took several years for my energy level to return to what it had been prior to Erin making her transition. Denise, I believe that Johnny will always be around you. He has not ceased to exist, he has ceased to reside in his Earth suit, which is what I call these bodies we live in. I also believe he retains his personality, his memory and his love for you. Do not expect too much from yourself at this stage. You are still very new in your grief. Peace and love, Helen

Name: Rhonda Lathrop
Location: Seymour Indiana
Email: rslathrop@webtv.net
I too lost my child. Michael was 23yrs old when he was shot and killed on May 19th 1997. I felt my world tilt. He was such a gentle loving person. I can't bear the thought of his violent death. So sudden and so very cruel. I love you Mike. I long for the day I see you again and please contact me whenever you can make it possible. Thank you for listening and having this site where I could release some of these feelings.

Name: Louise Faber
Location: New York
Email: gaide@macconnect.com
Since my 40 year old son died of Hodgkin's Disease on February 27 of this year, I have been finding paperwork pertaining to his treatment, particularly treatment he received in late 1997 into 1998. He was not told the truth about the true nature of the progression of his illness. The truth was that it had metasticised into the right lung in early 1996. Both he, we (my husband and I) and my daughter and son-in-law were lied to by his oncologist. It was our family doctor who uncovered the truth and delivered the bad news to all of us. This paperwork that has mysteriously turned up since he died was definitely NOT in his possession prior to his death. Is it possible that he has been retrieving that paperwork from wherever his former oncologist stores it and is bringing it to my house and putting where he knows I'll find it -- right on top of the radiator cover by the front door, which is where everything landed every time he walked through the front door?! Please let me know if I could be right, because I'm sure that many people would think I have snapped a twig! Thank you, Louise.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Louise, Please accept my heartfelt sympathy on the Earth death of your son. I cringe every time I hear of problems such as your son experienced with the medical profession. My own personal opinion about the paperwork that is mysteriously appearing on the radiator cover is that your son is somehow connected with this event. I have heard many stories of this nature. I, myself, have experienced items that were moved with seemingly no logical explanation. One instance happened a little more than a year ago when I was cleaning out a nine-drawer dresser in preparation for donating it to charity. We were making a major change in our lives and cleaning house, so to speak, in preparation for a move to another state. As I removed the last drawer, I found a picture underneath. This was from a Willie Nelson CD cover and had a picture of a rainbow and the words, "Somewhere over the Rainbow." It startled me because I had watched a Judy Garland bio the evening before and when she sang that song it made me cry because I always think of Erin as being somewhere over the rainbow. When I picked up this picture, I gasped at what I found underneath. It was a metal scarf holder in the shape of a butterfly centered directly under the picture. I vaguely remembered having this little butterfly but how it got under that picture where a drawer would have been is beyond my comprehension. It wasn't at the back where something would be if a drawer was too full and something fell out and slipped underneath. And why those items were in that dresser, I don't know. So, yes, I do believe this is possible. I also believe that he has a reason for choosing this particular way to make contact. I will e-mail you with more of my thoughts on this situation. Peace and love, Helen

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Rhonda, I send you a big hug. I am so sorry you have had to join the club no one would ever choose to join; the club made up exclusively of bereaved parents. I cannot take away your pain but I can make a promise that the pain will not always remain as it is for you now. I would not have believed that if someone would have told me this early on in my grief but it is the truth. What a bereaved parent has to do is learn to "accept the unacceptable" and to accomplish this feat is very difficult when a part of yourself has been torn from you. For me it was as if someone had taken a claw-hammer and ripped a giant hole in my being, and with no anesthetic given to numb the pain. But I learned along the way that the hole becomes covered with scar tissue as time goes by. Not to say the scar tissue won't be ripped open from time to time, sometimes when you least expect it, but those times become fewer and fewer as the years pass. The pain will never completely go away, what it will become is a background pain, always there but it is a pain around which life can still continue. I am proof positive that you can walk out from the depths of despair and once again experience life to the fullest. And that includes feeling joy. It will happen, I again make that promise to you. Allow yourself to grieve. All emotions you are feeling are normal under the circumstances. Any other bereaved parent, I am quite certain, will agree with that statement. My heart goes out to you. Peace and love, Helen

Name: sheran wickstrom
Location: prince george, b.c. canada
Email: jwickstrom@bc.sympatico.ca
When I read Helens book I honestly could not put it down. Her story and that of her daughter Erin is honest and written with pride and dignity. Erin comes to life in the pages and her spirit is one of a strong and dignified young woman who fought the battle for her life. Her spirit remains strong and true to the family that loved her. Never has a story captured my interest and held it like Helens.

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Sheran, Thank you for your kind words. Peace and love, Helen
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Name: Pepper
Location: Crockett, Ca.
Email: pepper@oneo.com
Web Site: http://www.oneo.com/memorial.htm
When I was 7, four (or six) angels came to my room and took me to heaven, well, not all of the way into heaven, sort of at the entrance. I saw people I knew there, they were gathered at the entrance waving at me. There was music, singing. I felt so loved. I told them that I wanted to stay, not to send me back, but I woke up in my own bed. I was so very sad that I was back in my own bed, but, for the first time, I understood that I had a right to live and to be treated well and have a good life, because, "up there", I was so loved. My parents were very sick, very abusive. There were times when my brothers and I came very close to dying, at their hands. The message I got from the special vision was that I had something very important to do. I still don't know what that is, although I successfully raised three children and did not abuse them and made a vow and took steps to be the best mother I could be. They turned out to be wonderful adults and loving parents. My Grandfather, who had passed on, came to me in a dream, I was grieving so much for him. He told me he was just fina and quite happy...and very busy in his new life, and that I had better get busy with mine! I don't know what he meant specifically, but I felt happy after that and was able to stop thinking and crying about him constantlty. Recently, my dear husband, love of my life, my soul mate, took his own life. I had three dreams about him. A few days after his death, he came into the room where I was laying down, there were two women with him, one on each arm, sort of holding him up, as if he wasn't strong enough to walk on his own. One of the women said,"He has something he wants to say to you!" Bob (my husband) said,"I'm sorry." Then the two women led him away. I reached out for him, I screamed his name, but they didn't come back. I have no explaination , no understanding of why he chose to end his life, and have asked him many times. In a dream, just before I woke up one morning, he held up a sheet of poster board with three words on it, written in big block letters, "BORDELINE PERSONALITY DISORDER". How weird is that? I looked this up on the internet and sure enough, there it was. The symptoms described were exactly what my sweetheart had gone through just before his death. The most recent dream I had, he stood before me and sad, "I really hated you!" So, I don't know if these dreams/visions are real, or just my mind playing tricks because of the intense grief. I would give anything to hear his voice again and hold him in my arms. Sometimes I lose faith. I feel abandoned by God and all that is good and I feel so alone. Bob's memorial is at http://www.oneo.com/ He and I played in the same symphony. Even music doesn't help to heal my heart. Sorry to lay this on you, but your page looks so warm and friendly and I feel so alone. Sincerely, Pepper

Name: Helen M. Fisher
Dear Pepper, You have had much sorrow in your life. For that I am very sorry. I just went into Bob's Memorial page; it is very wonderfully done. You will be quite surprised, I am certain, to learn that I lived in San Ramon from 1991 until early 1998. We could have passed each other on the street sometime there in Contra Costa County and never have known it. The experience you had when only seven years old was indeed a blessing. It was a lifeline thrown to a very sad little girl. I can only imagine how very difficult it has to be to have a loved one take their own life. My thoughts on the various dreams is that they are a combination of what I call "visitation" dreams and your own mind trying to sort how how this terrible tragedy could have happened. I had many horrible nightmares after our Erin made her transition. I now feel these were a result of my shattered mind trying to put all the pieces back together again. It is easy to lose faith when a loved one makes his or her transition. We ask "why?" over and over again and never receive an answer. We blame ourselves; we blame others; we blame God; and we still usually do not receive an answer as to "why?" But in your case in the dream showing you the words BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER, I believe this was to explain why he had done what he did. He had a chemical problem in his brain--he was ill. After reading about Bob on the Memorial page, I know he is not a man who would say he hated you, his soul mate. Thank you for sharing your story. I will be sending you an e-mail with a few more thoughts. Peace and love, Helen.